the fact that no one really properly knows me! No-one knows how i think/feel etc!  I hate it when people try to get inside my head.



a bit of mystery is a lot more interesting!

so


i plan to tell no-one



anything :P

and keep all to myself :D

Tags: me
Current Mood: drunk
Current Music: usher! wtf!

i have been away in london it was absolutely brilliant, had lots of fun saw lots of good stuf etc etc!

didnt think about him at all and now i may even replace him :)

driving test tuesday oh dear, dear!

will write more about london when can be bothered

driving test tuesday.... oh dear.

Tags: london
Current Mood: lethargic

Fate deals another hand.

I actually couldn't believe it, R came over after work and we decided to go to the pub, as usual it was a complete pile of wank so we  decided to go out in town!!!

We went to Cubes (the tiniest, dirtyist club you could find in the county!) so we were there saw some people when R spoke to her mate who was going to the Engine shed (a lot nicer studenty type place) so we decided to go there, walked down there, got in, went to the toilet, walked out of the toilet and who was walking towards me?

HIM

The one who I deleted out of my life on Friday Evening! So the boy is there and he grabs me and I don't even say hello I guess I just looked at him in a 'what the fuck are you doing here' kind of way, (he was the last person I expected to see!) then I walked away, I was actually quite proud of myself! Go me!

Then Me, R and J were dancing and he came over and sort of half grabbed my face , I still didn't say anything, just ow!

Got a text:: 'Cheers then!'

Ignored it.

Got another later: 'I'm home now why the fuck you ignore me tonight?'

Got home, went on Myspace and messaged him:

'Sorry about tonight
I wasn't ignoring you
I was just staying out the way
I like you but I don't think either of us are that bothered about anything more happening'

so thats it, were over, we are nothing.

Tags: boy, liar
Current Mood: blah

that someone who doesn't even spell your name right  doesn't really give a s**t! 

Tags: boy, liar
Current Mood: amused

i'm really not sure how to work this site!! haha!

i just wana read people's journals!

Tags: help!
Current Mood: confused

If i had known it would be like this i would never have looked at him, never spoke to him, never danced with him, never kissed him. And now it's too late. The most stupid thing is i knew it would never work; I said "Have a nice time at Leeds" He said "won't I see you before then?"

I fell.

HOOK

LINE

SINKER

And i'm the one who looks like a fool! the one who wanted to walk away from it before it even began.

I feel relieved, relieved and dissapointed.

Why is it the things you want often aren't what you need?

and why did I ignore my gut instinct? I thought by now i would have realised that my first reaction is always right.

Tags: boy, liar
Current Location: away from everything
Current Mood: contemplative